So I started this blog because I live a life of lies that no one knows about, not my sister, not my mother, not even my best friend. But I feel that I need a spiritual cleansing, somewhere to place confessions of my weekly lies, daily lies, hourly lies.
An early memory of my first big lie is when I was 8-years old. I went to school and told everyone that I was my identical twin, Sarah, and that my sister and I had switched places for a day.
Another big lie in my life--I think about my weight non-stop. It never ends, I'm a size two, I've been a size two for the past two years, and yet my biggest fear is getting fat. Not getting cancer, not my dog dying, not even getting diabetes or some other disease. Just getting fat. Thoughts of my weight plague me with every bite of food, every sip of water, and I can't seem to stop.
I also lie to friends so that I don't have to go out. As a teen I would lie and say I was grounded, and by the time I was 18 all of my friends thought that I had horrible, strict parents.
I also hate my job. In college I rebelled against my parents and decided not to do pharmacy even though that's what I love. Now I am stuck in a horrible job, pretending to love what I do to defend my college rebellion.
That's all for now, but my lies are daily so stay tuned.
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